I Have A Plan

I remember his words clearly as if they were yesterday, I can't remember the date, the time was after 5 p.m and most likely a weekday. I did not have a car that day and he was giving me a ride home at that time he also lived in Newtown Square. It was right after the Ridley Park exit on I-95 when these words were spoken to me. I just sat and stared at him I had no clue as I looked at this man who had a gentle heart but whom could be cunning. We became fast friends due to trials and tribulations at work as I was his assistant, our backgrounds were both military and to be honest he was very easy to speak to. He was also my boss,and his wife was an acquaintance of mine prior to working for them. Innocent? Oh yes on my part, never entered my mind that in the years to come what would eventually happen over the course of our lives.

Time moved on as we had our own lives and intermingled on holidays and other ocassions. You see my husband was also a friend of his wife from "back in the day" so we were fast friends who hung out when we could. Work was work, play was play we all intermixed beautifully within the enviroment. I truly loved my job at that time, I was new to the industry and he taught me the ropes of the embroidery world. I grew as the company did and thrived there as well. But something was about to change and change us indeed it did forever, well me at least.

It was the Monday after Thanksgiving, the opening day of Hunting Season with a knock at my door at 6 a.m. coffee in hand. All dressed in Camo looking like a lost teddy bear he had said he would stop by. Was I sure he would? Did I really even care? Then if he did well, then what! I started to feel like a teenager in high school. The stomach flips and flops,the tension and the whole uncertainty of what was about to eventually become a fabulous relationship. The gentleness that ensued was one that novels are made of, the caring kindness of this man to me was quite unusual and totally not expected . The conversation flowed effortlessly. We stole time whenever and wherever we could , we had ocassional Saturday lunch dates at a little place we found on 422 in Douglasville, Pa. Awesome friendships grew there as well as we became "regulars" and truly enjoyed everyone's company. The down side was leaving this fantasy fun, some days I did not want it to end! He was safe to me, he became a steady rock in my life where my husband could never enter for whatever reason. He filled my life with something that still to this day I can't describe to anyone. Truly would anyone believe me to begin with? I nicknamed myself, the head TOW~ the other women. I even contemplated a vanity plate! Ok who does that! We even joked about it . I became to know the game, I knew the past and the present of each player. It was my cross to bare and I did soley and totally.......................